Saturday, May 7, 2011

Whoosh . . . Crash

If I'd had time this week, I would have groomed both of my mares deeply, thoroughly and slowly, with ungloved hands. If I'd had time, I would have whiled away hours in Scout's paddock, being with her while she reconnoitered her new environment. Sometime, I would have cleaned and shined Saxony's bridle and saddle and run my fingers through her silly fat forelock.

If I'd had time, I would have spent more than 20 minutes in turnout with that new foal and her kindly first-time mom. I would have lingered in the squealy joy of seeing a newborn filly discover she can buck and run, I would have photographed her impossible attempts to mimic her mother at the water trough and hay feeder.

If I'd had time, I would not have felt the rash of passing seconds searing across my mind, my skin, irretrievable. Sometimes it really cuts me not to get to the horses when I need them. I know the days will come, but oh, did I need them now. All I could steal were the moments for this crabby bleating, which is only like looking at a picture of a picture of a picture.


Calm, Forward, Straight said...

Never fear - it will be perfect when you do these things! Horses are patient and live in the moment :)

Carol said...

Maybe it isn't much consolation when what you really need is horse time, but you expressed that beautifully. You have a real talent for writing. Hope you get time with the horses soon. The foal sounds like so much fun.

Kari said...

I too would have liked to be able to spend hours with the horses. Thank you at least for being there for me when I need you.

June said...

I'm looking forward to photos of that foal when you DO have time!!!

allhorsestuff said...

Oh, take heart!
I'm feeling your need...the horses will appreciate it all, when your time for grooming, cleaning and viewing delights finally arrive! And you, you'll be filled again ~

Rising Rainbow said...

Boy, can I relate to that place when I need the horses and just don't have time for them. Sometimes just being able to reflect on them has to be enough.

Hope you find the time you need soon.